What do I stand for?

I got a text from my sister this morning "Some nights by fun."  So when I got to work this morning I pulled up my Spotify and got "Some Nights" going. (BEWARE...there's a bad word at the end... :(   )

I heard it last week, but didn't know who it was.  It's a "fun song" as my sister calls it.  I agree, and even though reading through the lyrics shows that this song isn't all about the Lord, I still like the chorus.  :)  

Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for oh
What do I stand for? What do I stand for?
Most nights, I don't know anymore...
Oh woah, oh woah, oh woah oh oh
Oh woah, oh woah, oh woah oh oh

What do I stand for?  Really...

That's something I need to think about because I think "standing for" something is so much more than just having an opinion about something.  "Standing for" something means fighting for that cause and being that cause.  If I truly "stand for" something, you would have known it as soon as you read this title.  But here are a few things off the top of my head...

I stand for...

• The Bible
• Religious Freedom
• Freedom of Speech....keep it positive!
• The Military...regardless of if you agree with a war, these men and women chose this career to support something they believe in so SUPPORT THEM!!! 

Phew!  That was harder than I thought!  haha  To close out today's note I wanted to post this awesome quote I saw on facebook.  I love it and it says a lot about how I feel...

What do you stand for?

Day 30... The End of Your Journey...

Day 30- Who are you? 

Well, I answered this question on May 30...Read Here or Read Below:

Here was my attempt at that answer...

I am a 30 year old girl who feels like she is 23. I don't feel old enough to be married but I am. I am addicted to my family. I own a home. Home means more to me than just a word. I long to have purpose in my life. I am ready for God to show me my "greater purpose". I am deeply in love. I am living my "once upon a time" and my "happily ever after". I want to do great things. I am lazy. I am content in life at this hour and on this day. I am crazy. I am happy. I am easily amused. I am a French. I love God. I love all things spiritual. I am Jeanne's granddaughter, Carolyn's daughter, and Courtney's sister. I love being those things....

After thinking about this question all day I think I figured out my answer. I am just me. None of what I just wrote matters because at the end of the day it's about following Christ. Being what He wants me to be. So ... in googling "Who Am I?" I found this song and it brought me back to reality...

I am His. I am so much more than what's above, but at the end of the day none of it matters. What matters is that we are His and we will be His for eternity.

But let me see if I can update it...

I think all of that is still true with the exception of being content. It's funny how one little road block has got me all crazy this week. I am working through it. Basically I hate to be told "No"or have MY plan changed and that is what happened this week so I am a little .... disheveled, uneasy....UNSETTLED...yes, that's the word I needed...unsettled.

In my life, or in our life, things have always worked out with the most perfect timing. I don't believe that is an accident, and of course it's not, but I still like to believe that I had part in that planning. (I am laughing at myself for even writing that because the best things that have come in the last 7 years of my life have come on someone else's timing!!! haha) So again, I am talking myself into understanding that my rush and need for now will eventually come on His timing and not mine. While that is easy to write...my brain and my heart just aren't really working together right now. Blah!

But yes, 99.9% of the time I am still the girl above. Happy, in love, older than my brain says, and family obsessed! :)

Hope you enjoyed my 30 day journey.  If you want a recap check here (http://thebaehrblock.blogspot.com/2012/07/challengesor-something-fun.html) for everything you could possibly want!  :)

Happy Wednesday!

Carrie

Day 29...

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

I have learned that I love the Olympics, but that I am too old to stay up until 11 pm every night.  It wears me out.

I have learned that I am addicted to my family.  It's quite possible that I could seclude myself to them and them only and I am ok with that.

I have learned that it's harder to write a letter to my parents than I think.  There are so many things I want to say, but I don't know how to say them.

I have learned that writing a letter to someone who hurt me is so helpful in "letting go".  I felt so much better after writing my letter and my follow up.

I have learned that the Olympians are like caged animals in the Olympian Villiage and it kind of disturbs me!  haha!  (We are watching the O's right now...can you tell?)  Side note:  Track is definitely my favorite sport!

I have learned that I have a lot more work before I am who I want to be. 

And, last but not least, I have learned that I am capable of answering 30 days of questions...

One more day to go!

See you tomorrow,

Carrie



Day 28...

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

July 17, 2011

Me and mi cousin, Frank Michael

July 18, 2012

Henry (my second cousin) and me

How have I changed...well, let's see.  I would say that I have changed the most in 2012.  I set some New Year's resolutions and I have stuck with most of them.  I am learning to actively work on my relationship with the Lord.  It doesn't just happen through prayer at night.  I blog now.  I am content.  I was happy last year but I didn't know how to just be content when nothing was happening (good or bad), I can now and I love it.  I am so much happier focusing on the positive in life and not the negative.  I am learning to let go of people who bring me down.  Honesty is the best policy... even when it comes to RSVP's.  :)  I am trying to expand my horizons on food.  Baehr loves to explore new types of foods and I am trying to explore with him.  I am learning that for the most part if I am unhappy with a situation I can change it.  This year has really been a soul searching experience as far as who I am really and who I want to be.  I wonder where I will be in July of 2013!  :)

Days 25, 26, and 27...

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Well, you would find my wallet, my phone, change, and well, just a bunch of other junk.  I am trying not to carry a purse right now because the larger the purse the bigger the mess in the bottom...  :)

Day 26- What you think about your friends

I think my friends are pretty great.  I saw this quote on twitter the other day and I think it fits my life perfectly "The older we get the smaller the circle.  WISER!".  I think this is so so true!  The older I get the more value I put in the people around me, and I don't like to be around negative, drama filled folks because I think that keeps negativity and drama around.  :)

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Because I thought it would be something interesting for my blog!  I also like to stretch myself and answer questions I wouldn't normally answer.   Sometimes I don't even know what I will say or do until the day of.  :)

Hope y'all are having a great Sunday! 

Carrie

Day 24...A letter to my parents...

Dear Mom and Dad,

Yesterday, I was having a really hard time trying to figure out what to write.  Not because I don't have plenty to write, but because most things I thought of were very on the surface.  You know, the things I can find in a Hallmark card.  "Thank you for the all the things you have done, not letting me quit basketball my junior year of high school, putting up with me in 7th and 8th grade, praying for me when you could have given up, or for letting me make decisions you knew were wrong."  But I wanted my letter to be more meaningful than that.

On the way to work this morning, I saw a man standing on the side of the road with a sign that read "Not Homeless Father of 3.  Tough times, any help will do."  Here is this man, standing on the side of the road, begging for anything to help his family (real or not real), the perception is this man would do anything for his family, and I thought of you both and what I would write in my letter.

Mom and Dad, thank you for the things I didn't see you do.  The things I still don't know that you did.  The extra work, the late nights, the early mornings.  For the clothes and shoes I wore, the just because presents, school, summer camps, swimming lessons, family vacations, doctor's appointments, and just every day things you worked extra hard to provide me with.  Thank you for giving me a roof over my head and a strong Bible background.  Thank you for teaching me right from wrong just by your example.  I never look back and think I missed out on anything, and I hope you don't wish you could have given me more.  

Thank you is not enough for the things I don't know you did.  Thank you is not enough for the tears and hugs and kisses you gave me, but that's all I have.  So Thank You to both of you for my days and nights and my ... well... my whole life.  I wouldn't be here without you and the little (and BIG) things you have done!

I love you both... very much!

Carebear

Day 21, 22, 23 of 30...

Hey friends!

Well, I have been a slacker these last few days!  The Olympics are keeping me busy on the couch!  haha  :)  So here we go with Day 21, 22, and 23...

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

This little boy makes me happy.  He has since he was born, and I miss him now that I don't get to see him every day.  His voice and hugs put a smile on my face, and I LOVE being his GiGi.  

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Something that makes me different would be my ability to pretty much say how I feel.  People have always told me that they love that I can say what I am thinking...even the hard honest truth.  That, of course, is a double edged sword because when the hard honest truth is directed at some people they don't like it.  haha 

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

CHOCOLATE.  I mean...is that even a question???  I love chocolate in all shapes and forms and will hardly ever turn it down.  In fact, I am trying to say no to a chocolate brownie from Chick-fil-A as we speak!  hahaha!!!

Hope everyone is having a wonderful Wednesday!  It's August 1st...where did time go!

See you tomorrow!

Carrie